As a new Kemetic I frequent the forums searching for similar experiences to my own. Maybe I want to confirm I'm on the right path or perhaps my spiritual journey is unique to me. Some Kemetics describe their gods as being possessive or having all the subtlety of a hammer. I'm thinking this is a combination of 1. What god are you working with? 2. What kind of a person are you?
While a whisper might work for one devotee a shout does well for another. When I started considering Isis I didn't have that bolt out of the blue Aha! moment. It would have been great to have an amazing vision or a voice from On High tell me I was chosen. But that's not what happened.
Recently I visited southern Europe where I saw Catholic cathedrals everywhere. Needless to say statues and depictions of Mary and the Child Jesus were everywhere. The odd thing was I didn't really see Mary and Jesus. Instead I saw the Goddess and her Son. I saw Isis and the Child Horus. I made the mistake of commenting to a friend (who is Catholic) that all the depictions of Mary were similar to many Mother Goddesses. My friend was offended I'd make the connection between Mary and a Goddess.
My fascination with Isis, however, grew over the trip. Finally it reached a point where you could say I received a sign. I was touring the Vatican Museum of all places. I'm sure the Vatican hoped pilgrims would receive a Christian religious experience. Instead I found myself staring back at an enormous statue of a Roman Isis.
I'd seen this statue many times before so when I saw it in a room I nearly missed at the Vatican Museum it was a shock. I was transfixed. It was as if there was enormous magnet in the room creating an attraction, drawing me to the statue. I tried to remain calm and unfazed as there was a guard in the room.
After I left the Roman Isis statue I wandered into the Egyptian area where I found many oxidized bronze statues of Isis and sistrums. It was a reminder of how close I was to Isis and her worship in the Roman Empire. I didn't tell my friend about my experience at the Vatican Museum, but I felt it was Isis's invitation to me.
When I finally made up my mind to offer my first prayer to Isis I didn't know what to expect. I didn't know if Isis still existed. Perhaps deities "die" after so long not being worshipped and remembered. During the prayer, I instantly felt her loving and warm presence. It was like a mother overjoyed to finally hear her from daughter after so many years.
What are your experiences with the gods? How do they connect with you?
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